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Wednesday, October 4th, 2006
2:25 pm
Hello to all
Hi everybody

I'm a mental health nursing student from the UK. I qualify in February. I've suffered from depression for years but I'm now recovering (hooray). I'm loving nursing and can't wait to be a nurse proper I firmly believe mental illness does not have to hold you back forever.
Saturday, July 8th, 2006
2:49 am
Hellooooo all.

I just came across this community and I really like it.
I am 16, and I'm taking many courses as I can to become a nurse.
My sister, who is a nurse, is helping me along and teaching me a lot to become what I've always wanted to be.
However, I have Bipolar I Disorder. But I'm not letting that pull me back at all.

So yeah, my little introduction post.

Friday, July 7th, 2006
4:06 pm

Major cold feet. I seriously don't know if I can expose myself to this, medicated or not.

Current Mood: scared
Thursday, June 15th, 2006
1:24 pm
I did it! I got back into nursing school! I start general ed requirements in September, and the actual nursing program in 2007.

(I'm the former kosherlemon. Severe OCD, chronic migraines, cubital tunnel in my elbows, and forced to drop out of my ADN program in 2002 due to the OCD. Never thought I'd be able to do it again. Completely ecstatic and floored!)

Current Mood: optimistic
Wednesday, May 3rd, 2006
9:24 am
the ever expected anxiety attack

It came last night and slapped me out of a heavy sleep. I must have had a dream about it, because I remember bolting upright at 0230

The Thought that ...I am going to fail finals and never be a nurse and I might as well go to bartending school RIGHT NOW.

Anyway I am better now. I hope that everyone is doing well on thier studies and finals.
Thursday, March 30th, 2006
1:45 pm
Feeling so tired today, so drained.

I've been struggling through for the last couple of months- switching from lithium to valproate has been hard, as has been weaning off my olanzapine. I finally finished my olanzapine yesterday and didn't take any Tues night, and I was managing kinda OK until my groupmate for uni called me 4 times and emailed the entire group claiming that I haven't bothered to do any work.

Why does it seem like as soon as you are struggling to manage again life comes to kick you? I can't even look at that assignment now without having panic attacks.

I saw my psych today and I'm trying some quetiapine for the anxiety and to regulate my moods while this blows over (stopped olanzapine because I was really struggling to lose weight on it) and hopefully that'll help sort things out. I can't wait until I've finished my degree (end of this year, if all goes well) and then all I'll need to deal with is actually being a nurse.
Thursday, March 23rd, 2006
3:10 am
Hi my name's Sarah im 18 and have schizophrenia, i was wondering if there is any sort of law that could prevent me from studying/practicing nursing or if employers would refuse to hire me because of my illness.

Also could someone please explain the difference between a division 1 and division 2 nurse. Thanks in advance.
Tuesday, March 21st, 2006
3:20 pm
I found this community by chance and was utterly amazed it existed!!!

I'm 26 years old. I graduated from university about 3 years ago with distinction from my honors bachelor of science in medical anthropology (forensics) i was going to go to medical school but my anxiety disorder completely bottomed me out.

For 3 years i've bounced around administrative jobs that bored me but were low stress, still in the end i couldn't hold them down. As it was it was hard in school as i was diagnosed as OCD at the time which luckily i no longer have many of the debilitating symptoms.

Over the last few months and many many ER visits i was given everything from perphenazine to depakote to seroquel to clonazepam to lorazepam. The tranquilizers help with the panic attacks but i'm hoping for them to be gone soon as i start psychotherapy which my parents finally offered to pay to help me out with.

In addition i finally decided to realize my dream of working in health care and apply to nursing for a second degree. I must say i feel so wonderful about the decision. During the time i'm in school i'll also be receving therapy so when i graduate i'll be able to tackle any stress :)

The number of times i've been in the ER i've found other patients waiting to be drawn to me, they talk to me and tell me about their problems, often its the mentally ill ones who do as for some reason i think we attract our own because we recognize the little twitches when we're agitated i think ;)

They tell me that i give them hope. And thats what i want to do. i want to give hope to people who think everyone else forgot about them. Someday i'd like to be working with the homeless and with drug addicts, to combine what i learned through my education to create a livable state of compliance in public health.

at any rate, i wanted to say hello. That i feel positive knowing i'm not alone and that i hope that i can be the best nurse i can be.

now all i have to do is wait to hear back from admissions!!!!
Monday, March 6th, 2006
11:41 pm
update.. i am a survivor
I havent updated in here for awhile but I am so glad that you guys still post in here occasionally for support =)

ok.. where i left off:
i fell off my bike.. and incurred a very minor broken arm right before med-surg clinicals. Instructor wouldnt let me continue (doc thought i was capable.. i KNEW i was capable if given reasonable accomodations (ie. help with positioning and ambulating with patients). but then.. a fricken ocean of tears..endless phone calls and emails.. cruelty of the administration.. depression relapse.. bulimia relapse.. and knowing that i would lose a whole semester of nursing college later..........

i hath surviveth.. in better than just one piece

i recently finished my med surg rotation with the class behind me.. i did really well.. i got a 94% =). the free time now that the rotation is over (i cant take any other class as I didnt have the med-surg prereq).. has been eating at me like acid.. but im surviving that also.. ive been through hell with bad luck in finding jobs.. I didnt get the student nurse tech job at the VA this winter.. I lost my job with working with developmentally disabled adults..because i looked like the sister who abused one client.. and at another residence.. a client just didnt like one thing i said.. I cant get a CNA, NA, or PCT job as i dont have the required completed 2 semesters of nursing college.. Ive been dealing with bullshit from a health agency job..

damn.. putting all of this into one place.. damn.. i am a survivor. I have just fought back harder.. the recent loss of that job.. and agency frustration put me into another breakdown.. but i refuse to be a victim of life.. life doesnt just happen to me.. I can happen to life. The inner bitch and assertive individual inside has called the agency multiple times a day and voiced complaints. and well.. i am getting what i want.. hours!! =)

im just quite proud of myself.. i mean sometimes i feel like everyday is still this tiring struggle and my mind can be quite chaotic.. but i have stood up and fought for what i wanted the whole time. my depression is currently under control.. and i still havent reached the point in bulimia recovery that i had before the whole injury mess happened, but it will happen. im still struggling with it.. but im not paralysed by it.

everytime i think of the whole struggle.. and everything i will need to do to make my goals amidst all the chaos, random luck, etc i just want to give up and die.. but it really isnt so bad if taken in little pieces.

i look forward to my mental health advocacy speaking training this weekend. i can feel my power and im excited to use it

Monday, January 23rd, 2006
11:34 am


Mods & other community members, I apologise if this is not allowed, but it is a subject close to my heart & needs support from others who hold similar views.


(Cross posted a zillion times)

Friday, January 20th, 2006
4:40 pm
SRNA training
Hi all... I'm Maggie, new here...

I'm getting ready to start SRNA training in a few weeks, and I am really nervous... everyone keeps telling me how much I'll hate it. They say that all nurse aides do is clean up after patients... vomit, blood, etc. I really could use some words of encouragement right now. If anyone has any positive stories, please let me know! Of course, I'd like to learn about some of the not-so-great stuff just to be prepared. Thanks!

Current Mood: nervous
Friday, January 13th, 2006
12:40 am
*hugs my community*
okee its been awhile since ive posted.. where did we leave off...... OH I KNOW!!! having to withdraw from my nursing clinical due to a minor broken arm.. so yeah.. i went to the first day of nursing class today with my new peers (the class originally behind my class). talk about deja vu.. OH MAN!!! so retaking this course after having completed most of it is totally weird and demeaning!!! but at least i know stuff.. yup.. the younguns..they look up to me.. lol im not old..and they just asked me a few questions.. so yeah.

but im trying so hard to make the best of my horrible experience...im going to attend the classes even tho i do not have to.. i might as well.. learn it extra well. I am also auditing a conversational spanish class, hoping to refresh my extremely rusty poor spanish skills.. oh oh and im going on a caribbean cruise with my mom, aunt, uncle, and cousins in april.. lol imagine that.. taking off an entire week right in the middle of a semester.. WTF??!! ah well.. i will try and take advantage of it

so its weird.. all the nursing students around me are all crazy stressing.. and im like the zen master or something.. although a very bitter zen master. *breath* I ran into some of my friends from my old class..and it was nice to talk to them.. i miss them and yeah.. i think i will always be pissed for not being able to graduate with them. but i think already that some classmates of my new classmates are taking to me. so many new names to learn tho.. YIKES..

i hope everyone else is doing alright.. and loving themselves =)=)

Saturday, January 7th, 2006
11:58 pm
Just wanted to share
I haven't cut since 11/29/05. It's not much, but every day is a victory.

How is everyone here doing?

Hoping the New Year brings you all peace,

~Still Waters
Sunday, January 1st, 2006
8:31 pm
colitis and pancreatitis
hello everyone. Hope everyones new years was good. I am writing a post to kind of rant. My colitis was finally beginning to get under control in november. I was on Prednisone (which gave me wicked side effects) and then my doctor perscribed me Imuran. Imuran is supposed to be fairly well tolerated by most people. It was going well into about a month into it. I ended up with pancreatits due to the imuran and was in the hospital for three days. So right now i am dealing with the pancreatitis which doesnt seem to b e giving me a break and colitis. I am currently on Pentasa and that isnt doing much. Anyone have any similar experiences with drugs or any suggestions?


Current Mood: contemplative
Thursday, December 15th, 2005
3:33 am
xposted new community
hell this is fricken allowed.. cuz this is my damned community.. whahahahahaha
new community for those who want to quit purging!!!!

please join and dont forget to read the rules =) i made it all happy and complex.


thank you,

no worries.. nursing illness is my first born..
i could most likely think more about nursing if i could keep my fricken head out of my toilet!!!!!
Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
5:52 pm
my friend has been in the intensive care unit for the past two weeks and the chances of her living were slim. and I called the hospital today to see how she was doing. They said that she had been discharged. I feel so mean for saying this...but could that mean she is dead? could they say discharge if she was dead. Im just scared. someone respond, please.
Thursday, November 17th, 2005
1:50 am
nursing school horror story x posted.. i hope this doesnt scare you guys =(
you guys..im not doing well now.. im sorry this community has been quiet lately.. but ill never let it die.

this is emotional and negativeCollapse )
Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
4:18 pm
New member
This depressive episode is just not going away. It's been too long. I can't focus, can't study, can't care. I don't remember half of my drive to school, I alternate between total depressive lethargy and complete indifference. I don't sleep well, I've started cutting again and my work is soon going to suffer from the buildup. I don't know how the hell I got a 90% on my clinical exam and a 98% on my pathophysiology last week when I was unable to study and barely able to make it to class. I took an exam today that I didn't even know what I was being tested on. I left the test and went to the counseling center where I think the woman really wanted to take me to the hospital, but respected my feelings on the matter. I almost agreed as well - I almost drove myself to the emergency room last night. I just can't seem to climb out. To make matters worse, I left a nasty note to the family the other night about no one helping to clean the house and I still haven't apologized. Horray for me.

I really need this to end. I don't want to screw up now.

The above cross-posted to my journal.

Intro: Hi everyone - glad to have found this community and hope everyone is doing all right. I'm a first semester BSN student with a previous B.A. in psychology (ironic, huh?). I have a 7 year or so history of major depressive disorder and self-injury tendencies. I don't know what brought this episode on, but I figure the combination of nursing stress and the holiday season was enough. Trying to climb out again.....

Nice to meet you all,

~Still Waters

Current Mood: apathetic
Tuesday, October 18th, 2005
4:29 pm
Hi, I just found this community. I am bipolar and I've had a lot of problems with school in the past (I just barely made it through high school, and withdrew from college once already.) I just started back at college and I am doing prerequisites. I really want to be a nurse, but I'm so scared I won't be able to make it through. I am scared of just this first semester--I feel like I am becoming less and less on top of my classes. Plus, midterms, papers, etc. are all happening right now. So I am scared that I won't even make it to the nursing school part. It sounds so overwhelming, but I can't see myself being happy doing anything else besides nursing.

Also, cinnamona666: I was just wondering where you go to nursing school? I hope all schools aren't like that; it sounds really not fun. :(

Ok, it's good to see that there are people like myself out there...
Friday, October 14th, 2005
6:43 pm
i had no idea this community existed until just a second ago, but i'm glad it does. my name is stephanie and i either have anxiety handling issues, or light depression. i cry for no reason when i'm alone, i have bad mood swings, and take everything very hard. i've been this way for about 3 years now, but i'm afraid to get help for myself for whatever my problem is because i'm afraid the nursing profession will look down on me, or label me as crazy, or even not hire me for a job. i'm working so hard for my degree, and it's quite stressful, as yall know, and i'm afraid to get help because i fear it may jeopardize my career to be on wellbutrin or paxil or whatever drug my doc thinks may help. i see my gyno tuesday and will talk to her about it, but i want to make sure it will not jeopardize my nursing career in any way before i do anything. please let me know if my fears are unfounded...any advice is more than welcome! thank you all!
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